biscuits and control

I'm dead chuffed with my workouts for this week although my shin splints are giving me a bit of a problem running, I must admit.

I've done three bikini bootcamp sessions (1.5hours of circuit training, boxing, weights abs etc) and one 7km run in five days. I'm feeling great for it and very motivated for exercise.

Next week I need to go to the doctors to check out my shins (although I imagine he'll just tell me to rest) and also buy some new trainers as I'm sure they're not good enough for the amount of running I've been doing. Also, I've never had a problem with shin splints before either so that makes me suspicious that they've only come about since I've had these trainers.
My trainers were from an outlet in the States, on sale for $40. I didn't even buy them, a friend chose them for me so I guess I should really do some research and buy myself a pair. I'm thinking I should be spending upwards of €100 for a pair and with the insoles, they will hopefully help the shinsplints.

Anyway, my eating hasn't been marvellous and I'm struggling to have a clean day. This morning has seen a mini biscuit binge which I'm not proud off.
Am now working my way through a pile of cherries and feeling guilty about the biscuits but a little more satisfied generally.
I'm not sure the bottle of rosé last night helped matters either. It always makes me crave sugar the next day, although I'm pretty sure I sweated out all the toxins this morning.

I'm wondering if I'll ever be able to keep packets of biscuits or bars of chocolate in the house without feeling the compulsion to eat the lot. I'm thinking not. It's not something I ever have in the house for that reason but I'd love to have a bar of dark chocolate for those cravings.

Sugar sugar sugar

Well, it's fair to say I just attacked some biscuits - grrrr. Feeling sickly now and annoyed - it'd been a good day until that point.

Soya yoghurt, strawberries and oats for breakfast then a spinach and rocket salad for lunch with loads of goodies in, to include bulgar wheat, feta, roast veg and a very small leftover chicken strip from the bbq we had on Monday. Yum.

I am definitely going to get some advice from the dietician tomorrow about protein snacks to go with my fruit. I eat too many nuts when I have them so that's ruled out and oatcakes (although this isn't protein) are too moreish and I...er....well....eat more than I should.
I can't eat cheese due to my dairy intolerance/skin issues and soya yoghurt without anything in it, tastes like wallpaper paste.

I've got to get rid of the sugar as well because I'm indulging in it far too often at the moment. I guess my justification is that I'm mostly off the white flour and alcohol so I deserve something. Not good.
I'm going to try and do a week without next week, starting tomorrow.

It's bank holiday here tomorrow and normally I'd go out for a couple of vino's tonight and lie in tomorrow. However although I'm out for dinner tonight, I won't be drinking (I hope) and I'll try and get up to run tomorrow. It's definitely beginning to take over my life albeit in a good way.

I seem to have some sort of shin splints from the running mind you but after some intense internet self diagnosis, I've bought some insoles for my trainers for my wonky feet. I'm hoping these help somewhat. It's worrying as I'm busy collecting sponsorship for the great north run and don't want any kind of hindering injury.

I'd figured if I was training for a half marathon in September, I might as well carry on through the winter and try and get into the London marathon - something I've always wanted to do.
Only to get on the site and realise the ballot has already closed! Surely it was only on last week or something!!
So I've applied through the charity I'm running the GNR with but won't find out till much later in the year. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

I can really see the pounds dropping off slowly between now and September. I already feel fitter and sometimes smaller...although not post-biscuit binge. Ugg.

83.5kg (184lbs - 13 stone 2lbs) dehydrated weight

So that's what I was this morning. It shows that I'm definitely doing the right thing although I'm note sure it was a true reading...based on the amount of wine I had yesterday. I tend to find the scale reads lower after booze - an effect of the dehydration I imagine. Not good.

I was a solid 84 over the weekend though, which is back to my pre-Xmas weight at least. 4.5 months to lose the Xmas weight...eek.

I'm still really struggling with sugar cravings and issues. I'm not proud of the fact I nicked a few biscuits from my colleagues draw last week and again this morning. Last week I was feeling shakey after a run and this morning was due to a hangover. It just goes to show that I can't be trusted to be good with food with a hangover.

I also ate quite a bit of chocolate over the weekend - a bounty, a dairy milk, a yorkie and then some liquorice allsorts. The rest of the weekend was pretty good food-wise and very limited wine on fri and sat. Yesterday was another story.

I'm going to try and cut out the sugar - imagine the difference if I succeed with that!

I'm also struggling to get protein in with every snack, which probably leads to the unbalanced blood sugars and cravings. I'll have to work on this.

On a better note, I used the cross trainer last weds and thursday, ran for 40 mins on Friday tempo running (last 5 mins were walking as got bad stitch), more cross training on Sat and an 8km run on Sunday which took 56 minutes - still too slow!

I plan on boxercise tonight and no alcohol until I see the dietician on Thursday. Plus exercise every day until then although not sure how I'll fit it in tomorrow mind you....

Healthy lunch destruction

Yesterday wasn't a terrible day. It wasn't a great day either but better than some I've had of late. The good was fruit breakfast, tomato bean salad with balsamic and veg curry. The bad was three chocolate biscuits (those fox's crunch cookie numbers - the devils work!) and a packet of Minstrels...damn the mothership's Easter package.

Today I was ok bar nibbling on leftover easter egg in the kitchen but then I bastardised lunch and made my tomato bean salad, a fat bastard salad by adding creme fraiche and cheese. Ugg.

In a fit of desperation, I texted the dietician and we start on Monday :)

Smells like biscuits

Binging unashamedly on biscuits left over from a course I didn't even attend last week.
Sneakily so too - stealth missions too and from the kitchen.

I don't even like biscuits that much, especially these little fella's.